“Daisy” of My Heart

Good Morning and Happy Summer, to you! It’s hard to believe the Summer season is finally upon us after a brutal Winter, over here in Pennsylvania. With that being said, the entrance of a new season and completion of a swift training program brings to me an announcement I’ve been waiting to make – On February 17, 2018, a new family member, best friend and companion entered my life by the name of Daisy. It’s hard to envision life without her, as everyday is an adventure, filled with excitement and new possibilities. With Daisy, the simplest moments become exciting and she teaches me to appreciate the smallest things in life, as they often become the things that make our lives whole. As the rescues often say, “Who rescued who?” Welcome Home, Miss Daisy and Happy “Gotcha” Day!

Daisy smiling          Daisy 9           Daisy toys

It’s important for me to note how Daisy and I first became “acquainted,” so to speak. Following my beloved Oliver’s passing, I began to research and follow numerous area animal rescue organizations via social media (i.e. Twitter & Facebook) and would regularly browse their available animals. Though many of the animals (or all of them, rather!) tugged at my heartstrings, none of them summoned a connection or pull to me. That is, until the first Sunday morning in February. It was a brisk day, albeit bright and sunny, and there I sat, on the iPad mindlessly perusing through my Facebook feed, not believing I’d find anything remotely interesting. Without warning, a white-haired, light brown spotted furry creature with a pleasant smile and the most beautiful/unique eyes – a light russet hue, graced the screen. Her name, as stated by Crossing Paths Animal Rescue (www.xpar.org), headquarted in Alabama, with various satellite sites (a local one by me, in Pennsylvania) was Cinderella and several months prior, she’d given birth to numerous puppies. With all of her puppies adopted and in their “furever” homes, now it was Cinderella’s turn at a new family and home. As I read her story and gazed at her photos, something within her stood out to me. Just about where I sat was the painting of Oliver, created and sent to me by pet supply company, Chewy.com and as I looked up at his photo, I couldn’t help but feel (as strange as it may sound) an approval and encouragement by him. Since his passing, a piece of my heart lay empty, longing for Oliver, wishing I could see or touch him again. His final day still haunts me; I can still hear my voice calling to him as I rocked him in my arms one last time, “I love you so much, Oliver, I love you so much.” Still to this day, I wish he hadn’t left me, but I know of the pain and anguish he was in for so long and force myself to believe he is over the rainbow bridge, enjoying all the pleasantries of where he is. With that being said, I still feel his presence and felt his urging to submit an application for Cinderella, giving me his approval. In a way, I felt him saying, “There is so much love inside you, Melissa, why not give that to another dog in need?” “Give yourself the chance to love again, don’t deny yourself the chance to experience another one of my friends; it’s okay, I know you’re not abandoning me, you’re continuing my legacy.” For so long, I was unable to take Oliver for walks, unable to see him enjoy his dog food and treats or life in general, due to his significant health issues and I realized at that moment, adopting another dog would give me the chance to give all that repressed love to another who is truly as deserving.

Daisy selfie              Daisy 1             Daisy 2

Within an hour of first seeing her, an application was completed and submitted to Crossing Paths Animal Rescue for Cinderella (who would soon become Daisy). About two weeks or so later, Daisy arrived at a local Petsmart in my area via transport van from an Alabama shelter with an assortment of other dogs, also being adopted. The day she arrived was one of the coldest days of the Winter, but standing outside and seeing her, also made the day one of the warmest, in a sense. Life with Daisy is never short of an adventure. She is full of energy, life and zest, with a true puppy-like nature (one I still have trouble remembering, as Oliver was 15.5 years and it had been so long since I’d been around any dog with that amount of momentum!). My favorite points in the day are when I am outside in the warm sun with Daisy, taking our time walking and looking up at life. Each time I hold her leash, I can’t help but smile as I see her swaying from side to side, sniffing the ground, taking in the sights and smells. Sometimes I find myself wondering what her early life was like in Alabama, but I try to live in the present, letting myself love and enjoy her the way she deserves. When I become sad due to the daily stresses of life, I take a moment to sink into Daisy, holding her in my arms, petting her, and realizing how even though I feared I might not be able to love another dog the way I loved Oliver, there are all different types of love and plenty to go around.

Daisy 4              Daisy 7

With Daisy, my home and heart is full again and I know Oliver couldn’t be prouder, not only of me, but of his sister. Often times, I’ll tell Daisy stories about her brother, Oliver, and as strange as it may sounds, I know she understands and accepts her title of sister, with much pride and contentment. Each and every day, I’m so thankful for Daisy, so glad I stumbled across her photo and so blessed to have submitted the first application for her as they proceeded to receive countless ones following mine. I thank Oliver for watching over me and for giving me the greatest gift – the chance to love another.

Daisy Rescue      Daisy HomeDaisy chair            Daisy Waiting

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Poem of Life

Good Morning and I hope your weekend is off to a pleasant start. If you’re not currently following my blog on Facebook (https://www.facebook.com/MelissasMorningMusings/) you may not have seen a poem I shared yesterday; a poem which resonated with me and that I found to be quite illustrative of my life experiences, thus far. Therefore, I felt it necessary to share this poem in hopes that it may inspire another, or that whomever may be reading might find strength in this poem, as I did:

Last night as I drifted to sleep, I stumbled across a poem by Mary Oliver, shared by an author I follow on social media. As I read it, her words deeply resonated with me, finding much meaning and strength in the premise of the poem. To me, it means, we always have the inner power to take control and color our own lives, no matter how beyond our control it may sometimes feel.

When we listen to our inner voice, allow ourselves to be vulnerable and sometimes even do something we’ve never done before, but always wanted to, it leaves us empowered and forever changed. Throughout my life, I’ve had to summon the strength to begin again, often times when I felt I couldn’t. As I soon approach a new decade in my life, this begins a time of reflection for me and there is no better time to share this poem, which speaks volumes.

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An Insatiable Longing

It’s been several days and I feel the loss as though it is continuing to happen again and again. Sometimes, the thought of you is still there, but will fall deeper into my mind, but other times, it will arise with a vengeance and often without warning, summoning tears to flood from my eyes. My entire 29-years of life I don’t believe I’ve ever felt a loss as profound as this, the void seeming to grow larger each day. Where I often sit at home, in the living room with my laptop, I’ll look to the right, expecting to see your dog bed sitting there, with you inside, sleeping or relaxing. Other times, I’ll look up across the room at the other sofa, half-expecting to see you sleeping on the arm on the sofa, as you did years prior. Every time I look at your usual spots, however, it’s not you, but the memory of you I see, a memory I carry so deeply in my heart and mind. The longing sometimes increases with such intensity and I can think of little to quell it.

Grieving Quote

These days, some of the only things providing me solace are the several quotes I’ve found in relation to grieving, such as these:

“Grief is like the ocean, it comes in waves, ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.”

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”

More so than anything, I hope for my loved ones to heal; watching them hurt and me not being able to take away their pain is one of the hardest parts. Grieving is a process, an individual one for all of us, but I hope they know I’m recognizing their pain and hoping for a healing for all of us and that our Oliver knows how truly loved he was and will always be.

Dog Grief

 

Courageous in Words

Recently, I had the unfortunate experience of being on the receiving end of some mistreatment when it comes to being heard and recognized. Respect is not something I take lightly, nor do I think it should be withheld from those who are deserving. Though, for me, it is often a challenge to not take the mistreatment and turn it inward, judging and chastising myself for whatever I “did or didn’t do” in my mind. Soon enough, I’ve created a situation that may or may not be the truth or the reality of what occurred. During this times, as I did on this recent, particular occasion, I remind myself that the ways other people treat us is not a reflection upon us, but often a reflection upon them. When we speak up during these times, we advocate not only for ourselves, but for others; others who may be too afraid to speak, too afraid to acknowledge their hurt, or pain. During these trying times, I remind myself of this – speak the truth, even if your voice shakes.

With that being said, in light of all the controversies and challenging topics being discussed and argued about in the public forum, I thought it might be the opportune time to share some of the recent quotes I’ve stumbled upon via social media. As I previously mentioned in some of my earlier posts, these quotes are often from SimpleReminders.com, and now, the inspirational jewelry company I’ve come to love and admire – Alex and Ani. Of course, not all the quotes are from these two sources, but many are:

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“Whatever your beliefs, wherever you stand, you don’t have to be alone.”

“If you don’t make peace with your past, it will keep showing up in your present.”

“While your past may influence your future, it does not dictate it. Every day is a new beginning.”

“You will never be free until you free yourself from the prison of your own false thoughts.”

“I never lose, either I win or I learn.”

“The sooner you stop looking for something, the sooner it will find you.”

“Be with someone who makes you laugh even when you don’t want to smile.”

“If you don’t say what you’re thinking, no one will ever hear you.”

“Sleep doesn’t help if it’s your soul that’s tired.”

“Appreciate hard times. Someday they’ll just be another chapter in your success story.”

“Your story can help save someone’s life. Your silence contributes to someone’s struggle. Speak so we can all be free. Love so we can all be liberated. The moment is now. We need you.”

“It’s better to walk alone then with a crowd going in the wrong direction.”

Stand up quote

 

Believing in Better Tomorrows

Wherever you might be today, I hope your day is going well and if it’s not, I hope you see the hope and promise of tomorrow, as I try to do on particularly challenging days. As you might know if you’ve read my blog previously, I’m constantly searching for inspiration, even in the most unlikely places. Though, most often, I tend to find inspiring quotes and food for thought on mediums such as Twitter, Pinterest, Facebook and in magazines/books. Relatively often, I noticed fellow “friends” on Facebook and Twitter posting or sharing the quotes and thoughts of SimpleReminders.com. Perhaps you’re already familiar with them and are aware of their consistent posts throughout each day, but if you’re not, they are one site I’ve taken quite a liking to. About two days ago, I took the time to scroll through their Twitter feed, easily becoming enthralled with all they shared.

With that being said, I felt compelled to share it with others, such as fellow readers who might not have seen their posts, and it is my hope that someone might feel as inspired as me after reading some of them (NOTE: Not all are from SimpleReminders.com, but many are):

“The cost of not following your heart, is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”

“Life is a mural that you create. Every action you take is another brush stroke. Make yours beautiful.”

“True friends are those rare people who come to find you in dark places and lead you back into the light.”

“Be the girl/guy who decided to go for it.”

“Courage starts with showing up and letting ourselves be seen.”

“Flowers grow back, even after they are stepped on. So will I. Resilience.”

“Not everything faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced.”

“Use your eyes to see the needs, and use your talents to meet them.”

“Love is not what you say. Love is what you do.”

Garden Quote

 

Thoughts we can Feel

Good Monday morning, to you! If it happens to be stormy, windy and rainy by you, I hope you are able to have a pleasant day in spite of it. Whether your day is going well, or perhaps you could use a bit of motivation and encouraging words, I’m here today to offer some of quotes I’ve discovered recently that are quickly becoming my favorites. So without further adieu, here are some quotes of encouragement and strength today:

“The strongest people aren’t always the people who win, but the people who don’t give up when they lose.”

“If you keep looking back at your yesterday’s, you are not living in the gift that the present is.”

“There comes a day when turning the page is the best decision for you because you realize there’s so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on.”

“Never let your fear decide your future.”

“Note to self: I am allowed to cry. I am allowed to scream, but I am not allowed to give up. It will all get down somehow. Just breathe.”

“Admire someone else’s beauty without questioning your own.”

“Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday. Every day is a fresh start. Each day is a new beginning. Every morning we wake up is the first day of our new life.”

“You are part of a puzzle in someone’s life. You may never know where you fit, but someone’s life may never be complete without you in it.”

“Trust that every ending is followed by a beginning.”

“Use your eyes to see the needs and use your talents to meet them.”

“Don’t let your fear of the past affect the outlook of your future. Live for what tomorrow has to bring, not what yesterday has taken away.”

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A Tangled Path to Acceptance

Let me ask you this on this Friday morning: how often have you looked back on your life, no matter how positive or not so positive it has been and regretted a choice, thought, or decision you’ve made? To that end, how many times have you thought, if only? If only I had made a different decision or choice – if only I had taken a chance, or maybe, if only I hadn’t taken that chance? It is often easier and even, sadly, a widely-accepted social norm to berate or chastise oneself for the decisions one made or didn’t make.

Instead of focusing on the reasons WHY we made that particular decision or choice, we focus on where it has lead us to, what we have lost, or the ramifications of it. Instead of focusing on what actually drove these past choices, we may ruminate, analyze, or play out scenarios in our head of what our lives might have been like if we’d made different choices or taken different paths. Often times, this only leads us to sadness or regret and as a result, we spend much of our time dwelling in the past, envisioning a life we don’t have instead of relishing in what we DO have and the time we have been given to live it.

On the flip side, there can in fact be positives to reflecting on the past. It can keep us from making future poor decisions or provide us with insight into difficult choices, decisions and other situations within our lives. Self-acceptance has often been something I’ve struggled with in particular through the years and acknowledging where I am at the present time. Being kinder to myself is something I hope and wish to employ at I begin my 28th year on Tuesday, May 3rd.

Begin Again quote

As I said last year on my 27th birthday, for those of you who may recall, birthdays for me are often a chance to set a new goal, a new dream, or maybe the decision to choose to pursue a goal I neglected, but always harbored within me. With that being said, my goal for my 28th year, is to acknowledge I may not have or be living the life I believed I would, but then again, when I envisioned my life, I was a very young, impressionable adolescent or child, unaware of what life could bring or what I could encounter. I didn’t realize that the plans we make for ourselves can and will change as we grow and develop as a person and see more of what life has to offer. Some of these changes will be positive, some of them will be negative, but just because the path I thought I would take is vastly different, does not mean it is the one I will always lead. To get what we aspire to have out of life, we have to start somewhere. This year will be the year I decide to acknowledge what I’ve lost and the choices I made, but instead of ruminating and wallowing in self-pity, will choose to start again and adjust my sails.

After all, there truly is no time limit on when we can achieve our dreams or set new goals; why not start now?

Starting Over quote